calling bluffs and going all in...

Many years ago, while working as a traveling nurse, I lived in Las Vegas. I found it to be one of the most paradoxical places I have ever lived. In the midst of all the glitter and glam and incredible amounts of neon there was much literal and figurative darkness. I can assure you that being a resident there as opposed to being a tourist you have a whole different sensibility. There is abject homelessness and poverty in the face of what appeared to be extreme wealth. It could be quite deceptive though, as a lot of people liked to look like they were living large high rollers if only for a weekend and Vegas caters to that. There's an obvious difference between the “haves” and “have nots” and that drives a lot of crime there. It's a big tease... making one believe the big jackpot will come...eventually. I also loved to watch seemingly normal people come for a visit and and shortly lose their minds there in lots of different ways. It usually didn't take too long...a couple days of gambling...not eating right,,,not sleeping much...and constant sensory overload. I will admit that I frequented a few casinos from time to time and one of the things I really enjoyed was watching people gamble. It truly is one of the most mystifying and fascinating things in the world. I eventually discovered that there were amazing masters of gambling psychology who ran these casinos and we, the foolish and naive gambler, were at their mercy from the time we walked in the front door. If we only knew we never had a chance....well, maybe just a very slim one. Anyway, there was one type of gambler I particularly liked to watch...the amateur poker player. There was a very wide spectrum of amateur poker players...older grandmas and grandpas...college kids...women...girls...men...literally every description imaginable. They each had their own style and idiosyncrasies and quirks. These are what the pros study in detail when sending you away from their tables....humiliated and beaten. People are predictable and that is more that apparent when they get good cards. Let's just say the “poker face” is not a well developed tool with most casual infrequent players. My favorite thing, by far, is when someone goes “all in”. So, all in means you push in the entirety of your chips on the bet that you have what it takes to win the pot. So, I got to thinking about going all in... whether if gambling or just in our daily life. What really prompts this decision? I maintain it boils down to one simple idea...faith. Granted, that faith may be misplaced on a lot of different things. But, in order to act in most everything we do, it requires faith at the core of that decision. I had discovered quite a while back that faith was not passive nor a noun. I can say I have faith but, to me, that sounds nebulous and difficult to measure. Jesus talked a lot about faith and it almost always seemed to be tangible and linked with fear. As difficult as it may be to measure, Jesus was clear when He said, in Matthew 17:20, “He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”

As small as a mustard seed...now THAT'S pretty small. That one fact should be a clue to us how powerful Christian faith actually is. However there is an even more critical element to the power of your faith and that is the action part. This is the place where it changes from noun to verb. It's one thing to believe something but unless tested the faith remains static, passive and does not strengthen and grow. Again, Jesus was very clear on this as well when He said, in James 2:14-17, “What does it profit, my brethren, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can faith save him? If a brother or sister is naked and destitute of daily food, and one of you says to them, “Depart in peace, be warmed and filled,” but you do not give them the things which are needed for the body, what does it profit? Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.

So, back to our gambler...He may believe that he has the best possible chance to win...he may have (mis)placed faith in his cards, fate or whatever...but, unless he commits the physical act of pushing the chips in...nothing happens. Unfortunately, a lot of gamblers like many Christians like to hedge their bets...meaning hold a little back. What does that mean? Essentially lack of total faith. We live this way a lot because we let fear stand in the way of living a radical all in life. In a much earlier blog I wrote about when Jesus called John and James away from their nets and their family fishing business. What I wrote was,“ Jesus wasn't just talking about fishing nets here. What was shown to me is Jesus was speaking here in a figurative sense as He often did. He was telling Peter and Andrew, and all of us, to drop their "safety" nets not necessarily just their fishing nets. What is a safety net ? It is that thing that catches us when we fall.” We find comfort and security in our various nets. So, the dropping of those nets is the faith piece but is incomplete until we step out and follow. Sadly, many of us are hesitant...clutching desperately our pile of chips...afraid...tentative...weighing the consequences of a misstep...wondering if our safety net will catch us. We want to live in a one foot in and one foot out kind of way. I love the excitement that is generated at a poker table when someone, with a big pile of chips, decides to go all in. I remember sometimes watching...holding my breath...praying. Silly, huh? But, really...what if we could just let go for one time...go all in...push away the pile of everything we thought so important...and let Jesus catch us?  What if...